This past year—and in fact, for a long time now, but the lessons have intensified this year—I have been learning to let go. To say it more honestly, I am struggling with learning to let go. It doesn’t come easily.
What am I trying to let go of?
Why do I want to let go of everything?
Because I want to experience myself as one with everything.
In my first post this year, I included some lines from T.S. Eliot’s poem “East Coker.” The whole poem is about letting go, but one line in particular points the way: “To possess what you do not possess, you must go by the way of dispossession.”
Raimon Panikkar gave some insight into this paradox when he said, “I am one with the source insofar as I, too, act as a source by making everything I have received flow again.”
Cynthia Bourgeault puts it like this:
Abundance surrounds and sustains us like the air we breathe; it is only our habitual self-protectiveness that prevents us from perceiving it. Thus, the real problem with any constrictive motion (defending, hoarding, accumulating, clinging) is that it makes us spiritually blind, unable to see the dance of divine generosity that is always flowing toward us.
The more I let go, the more I am part of the dance.